People With Depression Share The Unexpected Ways Depression Manifests Itself

10. Not being able to start something new

"I really want to work on a hobby project. I have everything I need to work on the project. I know working on the hobby project makes me happy and makes others happy too. Yet I cant start it. I cant get the motivation to do it despite it being all I want to do. So maybe I'll just play some video games instead... except for some reason I cant bring myself to launch a game, even if it will also make me happy. So i just sit and scroll through reddit. close it. re open it. scroll. close it. repeat. All the while i'm internally yelling at myself to do something. anything really. But some days I just cant."

JerryVonJingles

9. Feeling intense anger

"A lot of folks expect depression to be sadness, a feeling of being numb etc but often, anger isn't considered part of the deal.

My friends pointed out that they were shocked that I was being treated for depression, until they realized I was never sad, I was smiling, joking, fun-seeking, but the smallest irritation had me so so angry. Not like, make-a-scene angry. Deep disgust."

Ladyughsalot1

8. Nothing that you enjoy is enjoyable

"Nothing is interesting. TV shows you used to like are just okay now, and you only watch them to pass the time instead of for enjoyment. Food doesn't taste like anything anymore. Work, if you enjoyed it, is now boring. Hobbies disappear. You're just there, surrounded by a massive expanse of indifference with no discernible boundaries."

JerryGallow

7. It feels like a river

"I feel an almost physical pull at the center of my chest/body. It feels like a river pulling at me, tugging at that center and trying to drag me down the river. I feel a perceptible tugging sensation and the feeling of dark water rushing past. Usually only when it's really bad. If you've read the Abhorsen trilogy by Garth Nix, it reminds me of how the river of death is described."

regalia13

6. Becoming forgetful

"I forget appointments, household chores, whether I've already told someone something a minute ago, class homework, where I just put my keys... I can muster up enough energy to focus on a few important tasks, but it's like my brain can't hold on to most things and they just get kind of dropped somewhere. The worst thing is that people see me as being flakey and lazy, and I hate it..."

burntoutpyromancer

5. Intrusive thoughts

"I am able to act and be completely Fine around people but It hits me when random thoughts get into my head when I'm alone. So if they ever found out that this has been happening to me, I don't think they can believe it very easily since infront of them, I'm this whole other person."

TheIncredibleFool

4. Developing a fear of leaving your house

"Moderate to severe agoraphobia."

ErisIvyBlack

"It's the worst feeling ever when you really want to go out to get some fresh air or just to take a walk or to go from one place to another on your own and you're just too scared to even leave the house alone or without someone who can protect you or make you comfortable"

mynameisRYU

3. Taking a lot of naps

"Depression naps are addictive. I go to sleep the second I come home because I don't wanna deal with the emotions of being awake. I'm asleep from 3pm-10:30pm almost every day. When I wake up, I eat a bunch of food, take a shower, and be back asleep by 12am. My family asks why I sleep so much. I just make a joke about being a "typical lazy teen" most of the time and hope they change the subject."

jordanaccordion

2. Emotional Eating

"Eating. I eat my feelings away. And sometimes it's the first sign that I'm about to go through a bout of depression, I get strong cravings before it hits."

_Clever___Username_

1. Sometimes you just have to ride the wave

"Sometimes theres just no reason. The emptiness shows up unannounced and doesnt go away. Theres no specific reason and nothing will cheer me up. I just gotta ride the wave until it's over."

optimisticparasite

"There is this "work" culture these days of success being directly proportional to the effort you put in, so if you're not doing well it's because you're lazy. If you're not visibly flogging yourself to death you're freewheeling.

But with depression sometimes you're flogging yourself to death just to manage to keep yourself alive. Sometimes the most you can do is wait for it to pass, like waiting for a cold to clear."

UnaeratedKieslowski