When one partner in a relationship abuses the other in any form, leaving isn't always as easy as it sounds.
Anna Kendrick recently spoke about her experience with an abusive relationship. She talked about feeling shame for continually trying to fix things.
The interview took place on Armchair Expert, a podcast hosted by Dax Shepard and Monica Padman. In this interview, Kendrick opened up about her dealings with her ex-partner of six years.
You can hear the whole interview here:
As the interview went on, and Kendrick shared more details.
She spoke about personality changes in her partner that had her concerned there was a brain tumor.
This medical scenario provided a macabre relief as she felt as though this at least gave her an answer for why he was acting the way he was.
\u201cIncredible episode with @AnnaKendrick47 \u2764\ufe0f Anna shares her very vulnerable story with us\u2014we are beyond grateful for the trust and intimacy. Listen to @AnnaKendrick47 now on @spotifypodcasts \ud83c\udf52\ud83c\udf52\ud83c\udf52\u201d— Armchair Expert Podcast (@Armchair Expert Podcast) 1673281144
Kendrick said:
"About six years in, about somewhere around there, I remember telling my brother, when things had first kind of gone down, 'I'm living with a stranger. Like, I don't know what's happening.'"
"Maybe he has a brain tumor, or maybe I have a brain tumor. Then we can do something about it. There's an answer."
Kendrick talked about how it was hard for her to admit it was an abusive relationship because of how quickly things changed.
She continued by saying she tried to fix the relationship by going to couples therapy.
She explained looking back on it now, she has so much shame for not leaving.
"There was an inherent thing of me being so rejectable that this person who loved me very deeply for six years, it suddenly occurred to him how awful I was or something. The shame, that linger much longer."
The internet shared their emotions about the interview.
\u201c@ArmchairExpPod @AnnaKendrick47 @spotifypodcasts Gosh I love her.\u201d— Armchair Expert Podcast (@Armchair Expert Podcast) 1673281144
Many people thanked her for being so vulnerable and sent their support.
\u201c@ArmchairExpPod @AnnaKendrick47 @spotifypodcasts Totally agree with Dax about this being the most affecting episode to date, bravo to you all for being so raw and vulnerable in such a weighted, sensitive exchange. There\u2019s been real power in this one. Thank you folks \ud83e\udd0d\u201d— Armchair Expert Podcast (@Armchair Expert Podcast) 1673281144
\u201c@ArmchairExpPod @AnnaKendrick47 @spotifypodcasts I was so incredibly moved by this episode, I start tearing up just thinking about it. Thank you all for being so open. \u2764\ufe0f\u201d— Armchair Expert Podcast (@Armchair Expert Podcast) 1673281144
\u201c@ArmchairExpPod @AnnaKendrick47 @spotifypodcasts THIS ONE. Man, thank you all three of you for sharing your vulnerability with us. Made me feel so human\u201d— Armchair Expert Podcast (@Armchair Expert Podcast) 1673281144
\u201c@ArmchairExpPod @AnnaKendrick47 @spotifypodcasts That was heavy. Also, learned a new word today. \u201cParasocial\u201d relationships. I think most armcherries have that relationship with Dax and Monica.\u201d— Armchair Expert Podcast (@Armchair Expert Podcast) 1673281144
\u201c@ArmchairExpPod @AnnaKendrick47 @spotifypodcasts I cried listening to the three of you talk through everything. It was emotional for all of you, thank you \ud83e\udd17\u201d— Armchair Expert Podcast (@Armchair Expert Podcast) 1673281144
Others talked about how they could relate to her story.
\u201c@ArmchairExpPod @AnnaKendrick47 @spotifypodcasts Such a good, emotional episode, thank you so much \u2764\ufe0f\n\nI've tried to catch up but I'm three years behind. This one I had to listen right away. So glad I did even thouh it made me tear up at work. Anna, I can so relate to your feelings.\n#OneDayAtATime\u201d— Armchair Expert Podcast (@Armchair Expert Podcast) 1673281144
\u201c@ArmchairExpPod @AnnaKendrick47 @spotifypodcasts I just listened to this & it blew my hair back. Related on SO many levels. AK, you\u2019re my hero.\u201d— Armchair Expert Podcast (@Armchair Expert Podcast) 1673281144
As the interview concluded, Kendrick spoke about how mental breaks and therapy gave her the ability to break through the barrier and work to fix herself.
She talked about how she went to CAA, her agency, and asked for a mental health break.
In the end, Kendrick said she was grateful for the ability to be so vulnerable.